Myself crying when he leave in the morning and I’m always misserable now a days. I hate his new job … he is leaving early in the morning and going to bed early. Which I honestly don’t mind going to sleep early but its killing me, not getting see him often and when I do he is always grumpy and I’m always sad. We are supposed to be getting married soon-ish, and now I’m a little more nervous then I was before. Everything scares me soo much, yes I do love change but not one that’s changing everything I know… I need to find common ground and I need to find it soon.